Gone :-(

18/06/2010 凌晨4.45a.m.

我想我永远也不会忘记这一天

对我来说是一个特大的打击

当我醒来时，你就在我身边躺着

看起来就在五指可触的地方

却不知其实你已离我越来越远

还来不及见最后一面，怎么可以那么狠心离我们而去！

永远永远都再也见不到了

那熟悉的声音，身影只能在我的记忆里出现

再也无法听见，触摸

后悔当初对你的恨与厌恶

后悔每次忤逆你

后悔来不及对你好

更后悔没来得及孝敬你

也后悔没能一起出门旅行与玩耍

后悔没说出其实我们都很爱你，关心你

太多太多的后悔

多到我数不清有多少了，现在后悔也没用了

不过，

谢谢你等我，在清醒时还能够看我一眼

告诉我你还能认出我来

到最后一刻时还能够让我服侍你

让我有机会能够替你檫身握你的手

那是我第一次也是最后一次替你抹身，紧握你的手

虽然还有遗憾，还不能适应你的消失

但，我已经很满足了

希望你能够在另外一个世界过得很好...

我的爸爸...

大家会照顾好妈妈的。

It's really pain

I was very panic when i received the call from my sis this morning

my heart very pain n sad

I scared my dad wil jus leave me before i reach the hospital

I dun wan to scold tat taxi driver,becos i wan to help my dad 'ji de'

but i reali angry tat taxi driver wasted my time around half an hour!!

I was rushing bek to BP but he keep wasting my time

he is a big lier!

luckily i stil able to enter before the visiting hour is end

whn i saw my dad,he was very weak n almost went into unconsciousness

I'm the last person reaching there

I kept calling my dad,i reali scared tat he cant hear me

finally he nodded his head n tel me tat he can c n hear me

thank you GOD!

Our heart very pain now...especially my mum

even though she din show it but we all noe she's very worry

nobody can save n help us...

the only thing to do is stay beside him n wait for the time

his condition is very bad now

mayb this moment he's stil stable but next moment mayb it wil change

I hope Dr. can try to let him no need to suffer so much

my heart is bleeding now

GOD pls help us!

We will appreciate it.

爸爸

从小都一直羡慕别人有个好爸爸

总希望自己的爸爸都能够像别人的一样

那么和蔼可亲，笑容可掬

能够对爸爸撒娇就像对妈妈一样

一家人能够开开心心一起出门，一起吃饭

但这样的情景从来就没在我家发生过

一直都是在吵闹打骂中度过我的童年

没有玩具，只有泥沙，花和草，昆虫的陪伴

淋雨，捉鱼，打弹珠都是小时候玩过的游戏

每当回到家时一定被骂不然就被打

全家应该没有人没被他打过骂过

就连我妈都不例外

从小就非常讨厌他

曾想过快点长大找份工把我妈也一起带走搬出去住

让他一个人孤老终身，因为他老是骂我妈还有打我们

别人可能认为我不孝，但是我对他的怨恨从小就累积到现在

从来就没尽过一个父亲应有责任

宁愿听信陌生人而被骗也不愿听我们的劝告

固执，不认输，自以为是这就是我爸爸。

但是，现在他生病了...

瞬间变得苍老，人也逐渐消瘦

吃不下饭却还要吃那么多药

不知道还能活多久

有点后悔每次回到家就对他不理不睬

把他当隐形人，忤逆他

希望菩萨能够听到我的祈望

不要那么快带走他...

我还没让他和我妈享福，全家人一起出门旅游呀！

神啊！求求你了...

一连串的事情发生有点接受不了...

心情很糟...

I Miss You

I know recently I very hot tempered and overbearing

I dunno why but I cant control it

I dun wan to be like tat

when I tin tat u r far from me

I feel very sad but no one can listen to me

These few days u look very busy until forgot my msg

If I din send msg to u again n u wont realize it

even when i cal u also the same

u always say tat u r busy n ask me to cal u or u wil cal back later

Is it very hard to send me a msg to tel me wat r u doing now?

Why mus wait until i cal u jus say u r busy?

I really worry about our relationship

I feel like there is something make us apart from each other

I dunno why i hav this kind of feeling

Am i think too much?

I got a little bit tired of this ad...

I scare...

I scare i cant bear this kind of relationship anymore

I really miss you a lot,do you?

I wish u can be my side now n give me a hug

or even show ur face 10mins also can

but this is impossible

u r so far from me

I feel very lonely

not dare to tell anyone...

first time this feeling come towards me

It is torturing me now,my heart is pain...